no wonder this work is so hard.
if I talk of emotion, I am disqualified from the academic club (Boler, 1999).
if I talk of my body 'knowing' I am no longer
if I talk of me-land, I am no longer appropriately human
if I talk of conversations with animate Earth, or a consciousness beyond humans, I am.???
Yet, I need to 'talk' of all of these.